Sunday, August 27, 2006
~ 3:53 AM ~
Its been another week.. But this week i had a stressful time.. since tue til fri , i had been busy studying.. studying quite abit to catch up w my accountancy stuffs, and i went for this LSCN(Life support course for Nurses)..I tot its was onli a course, but how i know got exam on fri, both practical and theory. Urgh.. Study like mad.. as i wed and thur need to Work and thur need attend accountancy course at night.. I was like everyday sleep only 4 hours..Well..wed after my work, i still got attend this Stoma teaching and need return demo ..i passed it.. but returned home only about 6plus pm.. so late.. As for Thur, after work, i need attend this BCLS test practical by the Nurse Educator .. i managed to pass also.. wat a relief...
So now, Fri comes.. that last exam before i really feel relief.. Went to DDB there at 8am.. attend this first theory test... 30Qns, need to pass at least 23 den consider pass(75%).After that was like practice sessions.. stress sia..
OK.. after lunch.. fine i failed my 1st attempt for theory test.take the 2nd attempt..den was stress for the 3 stations for my practical test.. Finally finsihed it only at 6pm.. went into the room collect my 2nd attempt thoery test results.. Yucks.. I failed it.. i got 22 out of 30.. SUZ>..short of one MARK.. was damn furious... just one mark..i pass... now i got to come back on 22sept to retake.. WA>...........
Went Home after that.. feeling sad + angry.. haiz.. but still sleep at 2am.. and sleep all the way till 3plus pm on sat... good..replenish my erengy sia..
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HAHA..sat off... had family dinner at clementi blk 308..heard the western meal v good.so i try lol..not bad la..
Den went off w my fren, Melvyn for movie + tea session..Watched this ''the break up''.
OKie..toking about this movie.. i began to think of myself n how couples actually quarrel den lead to break up.. At times its just that both parties are too stubborn to actually give in even abit and they wan to make each other jealous but in their heart , they still love and care for each other..
But i believe if a break up or mis-trust actually happens, its v difficult for two to come back together and trust each other again.. So i think the bottom line its get to know a person well and if u think that person suits u, den be togehter w each other.. Wen together, must learn how to give in and well sometimes u still got to stay calm, give each other some time alone.. self privacy ba.. Thats wat i think.. agree??
Isnt this bear nice.. a gift..by someone..thanks..
well.. got to work tml nite shift ... got to rest le..
Thursday, August 17, 2006
~ 11:58 PM ~
Went for Acca orientation on 12Aug 06' with Viven, a good friend i knew at acca course.. hehe.. she is so fun and funny and so jovious..nice and glad that i know her..thanks miss Vivien.. After that meet up with Patrick, my ex poly friend.. for movie initially but know wat, end of managed to catch few glimpse of fireworks that marina square there.. wow.. its so beautiful but so HOT..The place is crowded with HUMANS...
Rem 12Aug wat is the occasion.. someone's birthday.. had been celebrating with him past 3 years... Maybe just fated, the 4th year, not fated to celebrate his birthday w him.. probably someone is helping him celebrate ba... so sour..
Was off on both Sun and Mon.. Sun went Lucky Plaza with my colleague Rhona, went to Kanbanyan restuarant at level 3 to try out philipines food.. its very nice.. love that banana fruities..nice..Den went watching My Super ex girlfriend..Its a more to comedy movie.. worth watching...
As for Mon, I spent the time rotting and resting at home.. just dun feel like being out la.. i should say..HAd been working tue to thur.. tired..
Had this accountancy class again on Thur evening(17Aug06').. actually i was already sleeping inside the class.. my head was nodding away..Vivien beside me also...haha.. Den me and her , to aviod sleeping, bought 2packets of tibits and eat. eat eat.. haha.. like pigs like that..
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SLEEPY...
Sunday, August 13, 2006
~ 3:23 PM ~
LIfe needs to be carry on..Get together w some good friends.. ON friday(11th Aug) evening, had our pri school outing again at Holland V ,essencial brew. This time is with4 guys.. no gals can come... so with one gal only.haha..everyone one between four of us has own concept of life.. and i am rather surprise, age matured our thinking.. I was staring at chonghan(beside me right), amazed with the $3000 course..hehe. As for Weizhong, he is going overseas for attachment soon in sept.. this tIme wil be away for couple of mths..Then Zheelong, that so big guy beside my left, also wanna strive harder for a better future.. Last but not least is Jiajing(furthest of left), he working hard too.. but planning to further his studies..Was glad everyone has their own plan and dreams..wish them all the best and meet up again ba.
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Meet up with another group friends at 11pm..urgh..was so tired but still wanna see them as i already rejected them so many times..
Tok alot that night.. and really glad i get to know them.. I only know my colleague, Tricia, (black blouse beside me).
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
~ 4:18 PM ~
Nurses Day is on 1st Aug.. My Qns is ... Do anyone knows.. probably only nurses know ba..and the worst thing is not all nurses know...yea..Having Nurses' Day celebration on the 3rd Aug in Kent Ridge Wing auditurium is a good thing for me. I went over for the celebration after my morning shift.
And that is the first time after so long I actually really laugh my heart out.. The performance was very funny , lots of laughter and jokes.. I enjoyed the performance even though was extreme tired out..
After these few weeks, i had been finding reason to live.. I know there are lots.. alot of my blossom friends are talking to me to make me alive again.. to make me able to find my motive of life again. I dun show sad or lost in front of them but i guess they can feel it.. I didnt hope for any outcome of any relationship again coz i was already burn out in relationship.. I feel so lost...Luckily my friends are around..
I fall sick right after he made a full stop to our relationship... lots of pple qns me WHY? isit bcoz of ''Too sad''.. I duno.. This time i was sick.. and i was all alone.. shutted myself alone in my room.. not even a single family know i m sick.. mayb thats wat ur call ''Depression''.. or probably ''self denial''. And i become 'stronger' and 'more independent' wen i recover.. i realised i cannot trust anyone.. only my family and myself.. and some of my true friends.Eg.. Kangni, Elaine,Tricia, Roy and Klevin. and my fellow colleagues.. They had been with me during my bad times..
I am not trying to tell eveyone that i am so pitiful .. I am just giving myself a place to type out my thoughts.. In tat just ended relationship, there is no right or wrong, probably just ''its not meant to be''. At that point of time i knew the 'news', it seems that the whole world are topping down.. the sky is so dark.. sun was nowher to b found, every memories u have w him triggered a tear in me..., even though heartpain i still need to let him go..coz he is not mine..''
Having another failure in taking driving test made me so sad.. How i hope i can see sucess again.. Isit God is trying to make me become stronger and able to overcome failure? I duno..
Thanks everyone , all my friends that make their effort to make me happier.. I will ... ''ONe fine day''.. thanks..
ginny